Hates how exams screw my life upside down.

13 lectures in about 4-5 hours.

And more than half a tube of Pringles.

Not bad right?

:)

Wish I can keep it up for the next 3 days.

There are more buds!

It's so quiet.

Yea the hell it's exam period, but god, such gloom?

Even though exam is like 1-2 weeks away.

Anyway.

That doesn't really concern me because right now I'm the happiest for as long as I'm aliveee.

HAHAHA.

I set up the alarm to wake me up earlier just to wait for the arrival of my parcel.

Now if only I do that for my revision...

Anyway.

I was rubbing the canvases against my cheek.

Yes, I'm sooooo happy.

I was taking in all the smell~

The beechwood too, rubbed with linseed oil, ahhhh...

I got the easel for fun I think.

The set of 10 white bristle and taklon brushes++

FANBRUSHHHH. Please be patient till it's your turnnn!!

I'm already thinking about the colours for different layers I would be paintingg**

AH MELTSSSS.

So, should I eat out tomorrow for my own pleasure?

Maybe I will.

And it's not weird to eat out alone!

x]

Maybe I should've enrolled in an art college~ >:E

I keep getting myself hooked onto another story after another.

When will I stop?!

I need to start blardy revising!

And art projects!

Stop popping into my mind randomly!

Especially when I'm trying to be serious!

Okay.

I'm just too excited because I'm getting my 22kg worth of art stuffs tomorrowwww.

YAYYYY.

.O M F G.

What's with me being so over zealous about making wire sculptures?!

And.

Flora?!

I was scared shit but now I'm damn happy for various reasons.

Is the title long enough? AHAHA.

Don't think so actually because I don't think I was being extreme enough anyway.

And

ANYWAYYY.

HAHA.

This blog's first post with PICTURES.

LoL, I think I'm damn in a pretty good mood.

I was just trying out Scott's Salmon Fishcake recipe.

The recipe sounded so easy but when I was doing it....

LOLOLOL. Frying those needs such high level of skills man! Or I'm just a terrible cook! xD

Right, here it is!

And since I'm in the mood, I'll show you what I've done so far while I was in Newcastle. >:D

I've actually lined them up in sequence so that I can see if there is any improvement or sorts.

This down here is haha just some random fried spaghetti with shrimps and carrots.

This is another random meatball noodle too. Nothing much to be proud of.

AND THIS. Hahahaha, I was actually making the effort to make Fortune Cookies before Chinese New Year this year! xD It wasn't too bad!

This is my all time favourite! Chocolate chip cookies!!! This is a real success.

-hearts-

Wooo. This come in as my 2nd favourite! Omelette rice!

So when I had extra potatoes, I roasted them! Not bad too. Then again I'm not a fan of potatoes.

And for my own amusement! I bought flowers to decorate my desk. Loveliess. x]

Geee. This post is so gay!

Byes!

I do study hard! xDDD

DRRR!! Episode 17 IS WIN.

Omg I love it so much when everything starts to fall into place!

Why am I encountering so many good anime at this time?!

Plot is awesomeeee.

Higashi no Eden is L.O.V.E. too.

Then I'm back to my revision! (:D

Dying Scream Makes No Sound. >:E

Aye, I'm like a mad cow on the loose.

What I'm doing now, is probably gaining lots of disapproval.

Maybe it'll turn out worse than I thought, making things even harder for myself.

But.. so be it.

I think I would call it pseudo-situationism?

Trait still plays a role though, in my opinion.

Unfortunately, no one I know get the hang of what I'm doing.

Heck, it's not even easy doing it you know?

Depending on the situation, I'm gonna stop using my phone altogether.

Though I think that won't work well at all. >P

Like you said, I'm lucky there are no more classes that I have to attend.

And I've made it clear to 2 person that I've deleted contacts.

I'm glad EXP is always with me.

And I'm beginning to see a certain pattern thanks to EXP.

You won't be unveiled just yet.

Until I'm ready and done tweaking some codes and designs.

It's in no way some kind of "emo" shit. Pft.

Thump Thump Thump.

My heart is beating so irregularly that I don't know what to do with myself.

I run away when I see people.

I bought flowers.

Yellow flowers.

And I rearranged them myself in a pasta sauce jar.

Can you please last longer for me?

Ah.

I bought a sketch pad, sketching set and tear-off palettes today too.

And no news of my purchases being despatched to my place yet.

Oh please do come quickly.

Wind is just too cold today.

Artfulness of Art.

You know what just made me happy?

Your Cowling & Wilcox Order # 6430 Thank you for placing your recent order. We will despatch your goods within the next 5 working days. We will send you an email soon to confirm when your goods are being despatched. Please use your Order Number (6430) in all correspondence. Your Total is: £00.00 Ordering Information Invoice Address Miss Fun[cc]K ' D Richardson Road Newcastle upon Tyne, Newcastle upon Tyne UK (Mainland) Delivery Address Miss Fun[cc]K ' D Richardson Road Newcastle upon Tyne, Newcastle upon Tyne UK (Mainland) 1 Product Quantity System 3 Introduction Set 1 Dart Easel Artist Canvas Rectangular 18x14 inches. Pack of 2. 1 Artist Canvas Maritime 30x80cm. Pack of 2. 1 Deep Edge Canvas Square 30x30cm. Pack of 2. 1 Brush Wallet White Bristle 1 Soft Grip Golden Taklon Fan Size 2 1 If you have any problems or queries, please do not hesitate to contact us at enquiries@cowlingandwilcox.com or by phone from the UK on 020 7749 7634 or 0044 207 749 763! 4 from overseas. Kind Regards Your Team at Cowling & Wilcox.

I can't be happier.

(Especially "now" due to certain circumstances.)

Be glad.

Wonder if it will come the next afternoon.

It would suck if my burning urge dies down before they present themselves therapeutic.

Anyway, one of my many wishes realized.

:)

Charlotte. The Potatoes.

First off, I've never written so many posts in one day ever before.

How amazing how much crap I can crap when I think I do not feel stressed out at all.

As soon as I turn my focus towards composing "essays" that are supposedly reflective of my inner thoughts, it feels like something is being sold down the river.

Why am I giving myself away?

I've always and have always intended to be and remain an enigmatic person.

Oooh, I really love the sound of it!

Who am I kidding.

Ha.Ha.Ha.

I can't tell if I'm already such a person.

I haven't yet gone up to someone and ask them:

"Hey, do you think I'm myssssterioussss???"

*Eyelids fluttering crazily as if it's never actually fluttering in the first place.

The shine in my eyes plausibly comparable to a lorry's headlight.*

% You'd better say YES or god knows what's gonna happen to you later on. %

@@@

Most kind people would answer my question without doubt.

Most kind people would answer my question after giving it some thought.

Most kind people would answer my question honestly.

Some of them, would just go "huh, what the hell?"

@@@

There are many more outcomes I can list out to the above scenario.

But I think I should be tending to my roast potatoes now.

See, I think the stuffs I write about generally revolve around different states of mind.

Besides sarcasm, I enjoy contradiction too.

And I never, let the true purpose of my writing shit like this lie in plain anywhere across the passage. There are clues. But I think it's just too hard if I don't know myself well enough.

For my own Clarification:

Posts down there are all bullshit.

LAST ONE, I PROMISE?!

Okay now I think I MIGHT fail the exam.

There's a good deal of stuffs that I have totally no knowledge of.

(Like, half a meter high of lecture notes?)

Its seemingly uncomplicated existence made my bizarre life an even chaotic one.

I can feel a shower of

"WHAT WERE YOU DOING?!"

coming down on me anytime soon.

Let me go grab 10 oxygen tanks first.

>_>

#6 (please let it be the end, really)

Mom, Dad,

I half wish you are reading this.

Probably will when my bros learn of its existence.

Doubt so when I will see to it that this is made entirely private.

OH.

At a moment like this, it should have been:

THE EXP.

SPAM #5. (can it be the end already?!)

Okay fine.

Can I just go to sleep now?

This is like me trying to talk to myself.

Fucking no sense.

Sucks to not have a worthy confidant here.

Maybe I should start ranting on google docs instead.

This feels too fucking public to go mental on.

Fuck it all.

Spam #4.

Truth is,

everything is pretty darn boring.

The post below could just be a spoiled me fussing about half-heartedly again.

What's real and what's not?

Just don't say that I'm having pre-exam stress.

No fucking way.

What's real and what's not?

Blog Spam #3.

Every time I study for these exams, I will think about failing it.

And then, to go ahead and switch course.

I'm still stuck at the same thing from this morning.

No progress at all.

This is so horrifying.

Again and again, I really am lacking interest in this subject.

The only interest I have in mind is to at least pass the exam.

And the next and the next and the next until I get the licence.

But how the fuck is that even feasible when I'm using tonnes and tonnes of effort just to gather a spark of interest to read through everything.

God knows how many excuses and happy reasons I've given myself just to motivate myself and reassure myself about this.

At the end of the day, I don't even know what the fuck is my fucking problem anymore.

And so.

Every time I study for these exams, I will think about failing it.

And then, to go ahead and switch course.

- - -

Is is a hint.

Or is it a challenge for a most unexpected future most beneficial to me?

It's not about positive or negative thoughts.

It's "this" or "that" for me.

How I wish I am a braver person.

How I wish,

the options available aren't the only option available.

'D 'D 'D 'D

Yea, gone with Fun[cc]K -- i' .UP. as anyone can see.

It's now Fun[cc]K ' D

for one reason or another.

I'm changing.

Therefore, this should change along with me.

What's the change in you?

Something Stinks!

Hey stupid blog, it's 3rd May in 15 and less.

Exam is 3 or less weeks away.

Can you tell how god damn pressured I am right now?

Most probably yes, since it's really unexpected of me to be visiting after some (reasonably long) time.

(But not as long as someone else, coughs~)

I took a nap at the wrong time - blame the ridiculously long day.

It's still god damn sunny at 9. PM.

Woke up when it's 10PM.

There goes dinner.

No, I can't possibly cook at that time.

Because, I've decided that I would start focusing on my revisions as soon as I wake up.

So I did.

Jammie Dodgers are what I'm jamming into my mouth right now to fulfill my stomach.

Hopefully.

Really, the whole point of this post is:

"IS IT HUMANLY POSSIBLE FOR ME TO FINISH READING THROUGH EVERYTHING IN 2 WEEKS?!?!?!?!?!?!

EXAMS MAKE ME FEELS LIKE AN IDIOT.

I ALREADY BELIEVE I AM ONE.

IN MANY WAYS.

(SUCH AS THIS)

THANK YOU."

Good luck to all of you who will be taking an exam soon!