Plan.... retreat?

Ahhh.... I don't even care anymore.

And I don't feel sad either.

If I do fail again, I am considering to heal myself emotionally or fulfill this emptiness in me somehow until another chance to re-take the paper a year later.

I seriously don't mind.

Giving In...?

Even though there is only 9 hours left till the DIT paper...

Even though I know I am definitely not ready for it...

Even though the above should be stressing me out immensely...

Even though I should then try to concentrate and read through everything quickly...

I. just. can't. do. it.

So Fucked.

I am so fucked.

It's the last paper and I couldn't even gather energy to study what there is still remained to study.

It's like I have no fear of failing again, at all.

Are you crazy?

I am not even fucking bugged by the "responsibilities" I have on me anymore.

Are you crazy?

I constantly have these really delusional(?) thoughts. If only it gets real, then it's an entirely different story.

Are you crazy?

Let Me Wonder.

Yes, studying is seriously crazy boring for me... Damn, even the many mistakes I did yesterday during OSCE is not motivating me enough.

Sigh, and if I knew how attracted I am towards kpop I would have bought the smtown live in Paris concert ticket way back in April, the 26th. Argh, it's really saddening. It's still possible to get the ticket for the concert, but I am mostly clueless about my transport and accommodation there. What's more, I am very likely to be a lone concert-goer. That itself is super worrying. Ahhh.....

Can things work out for me?

So many celebrities in one concert, the money spent on everything should be worth it right? I haven't been to a concert in a long time as well...

Hmm... I wonder...

Love Sick?

Hahaha. How ridiculous. Am I gonna keep going on like this forever? I know I enjoy solitude. But what will happen next?

And yet I kept complaining about loneliness...

Bored break 2

Arghhhhhhh. :(

Blogger-droid app sucks big time.

Yehhh. I was trying to post something through that app. But it didn't work. Anyway starting now I'll be randomly spamming my beloved blog when I'm bored. Honestly speaking, I'm always bored shitless.

Gonna be bored into boring a hole on the wall in front of me now.

FUNCKKKKKKKKD!!!