It's always the case.

Okay, when I was still in Newcastle, I wanted to go back to Malaysia quickly.

When I'm back in Malaysian home, I can't wait to go back to Newcastle home.

The youngest bro is just so goddamn annoying.

Wanting to see everything I do on the laptop, wouldn't leave me to play XBox alone, asking me truck loads of questions...

wouldn't even let me sleep in peace until I gave him a slap, yea, I'd go as far as that.

Not enough sleep --> bad headache --> can't sleep because someone is disturbing me intentionally unintentionally --> person doesn't seem to understand you're really angry at this point --> then a bit of violence does the job --> person finally gets it and leaves you alone --> you get to sleep for a few hours in peace -------->

then, the person rudely wakes you up.

So much for a peaceful rest.

In the end it was still ruined.

And then, he came over and said

"Hey sis, I'm sorry for what I did okay? Sorry yea?"

He meant it.

I'm a bit weak against his charm.

Tsk.

Forget it.

I'm gonna start gaming.

Yes, there's time! >BD

Blood+ has an interesting story line and good material, but they are all wasted away by poor animation and overall execution. So in truth it sucks. The flow is terrible.

I feel no love for any of the characters at all.

If, say, I must choose one of the better ones, I will choose Diva, the main antagonist.

Oh, and I'm so sick of Hagi's "If that is your wish..." and his tailing around Saya tirelessly.

Fine, because he is her chevalier. But there is not enough character in him at all.

=_=

Edit: Everything got better from about episode 38 onwards. BD

Though I'm surprised how they can churn out exceptionally nice OP and ED sequences.

***

I spent a good deal of time working on the assignment today.

I'm glad I'm given this opportunity because it really allowed me to re-evaluate how bad my original work is. The amendments I have made so far are at a whole different level. So I guess I don't want to complain about how I'm wasting my time doing it again. It's a good lesson. And with this, I'm sure I'll be able to do better for my future assignments. The same goes for my resit in August. I accept and acknowledge that I had my problems and it really affected my performance, severely. Though it hasn't yet sink in me that if I do not do well for it either, I will truly diverge from this path. I might be happier if that happens, or further drown myself in depression and anxiety. Either way, I have not come to think about it yet, so those emotions are not registering themselves in me.

It definitely changed my character, for the worse. LoL.

For a full revival, it's gonna take what feels like an eternity for me.

Ahaha, I loveeee hyperbole!

Nah, I'll take my time.

I have time.

One Story Finished.

It's all as expected.

No fear? Not really.

It ticks me off to see how good the song is but its PV is just awfully tasteless.

It's not empty, it's just not full yet.

How farcical.

Surprisingly I was too well prepared and the blow didn't impact me, at all.

I want to say I don't know what to say.

But really, there is no need to say anything.

With five bestest buddies (both living and non) at my side,

it's more than sufficient life support.

I am so glad that I am me.

勇気！

I gotta tell myself:

To want to attempt an art, you gotta be B O L D about it.

Then, DO IT.

Sissy me haven't yet dare to lay my hands on my 2nd piece even though I've been thinking about it for DAYS.

Kidding. For the first I've been thinking about it since way before exam, and that's like about 2-3 weeks. Waited until my mood got around it and got it dealt with.

Guess this is really training up my courage.

Just that this time round, there's not much source as reference.

So it's mostly original from my head.

Even if somebody somewhere out there might have thought the same.

It'll be fine it'll be fine.

If it's ever ruined, I'll just overlay it with thick black paint and have something else done on top.

Easy as pie.

So yes, now I can finally get down to it.

-grinss-

F,IRST.

Well.

I've finally did it!

I think the resulting product is just fair.

There are so much room for improvements of course.

So before I get started on a list of what I should improve on, let's see what it is about.

Untitled.

Acrylic on canvas.

14" x 18"

7 hours.

Yeah, 7 hours is so long for something like that.

But okay, I took the pain to pay attention to details even on the little branches.

It was also my first time, so I deffo lack the experience.

Prior painting this, I watched a lot of painting videos and referenced to a lot of different arts from books and Google. Picking up some tips and what not.

At first I wanted to paint this tree in full bloom of white flowers which I can see outside my flat's window.

But that was during mah exam period weeks ago and by now all the flowers are d.e.a.d.a.n.d.g.o.n.e. I decided, no, I can't do it anymore even if I can still conjure up the image from my mind.

Really.

Inspired by Tim Gagnon's style.

Neat and dreamy scene.

And I love clouds.

Composition... I dunno.

Lighting... I didn't pull it off well enough.

The tree's shadow, hmm, can be improved.

Because of the style I desired, I find fault at myself for constantly letting my unstable hand painting strokes out of the shape.

I don't really care about the two mountains at the back though.

Arrangement of clouds down the canvas dissatisfied me.

Hm... Anything else?

Grasses turned out sweeet.

:D

With this finished, I have a feeling where my place lies.

I go for a more modern, contemporary, abstract, still life and slice of life-ish stuffs.

Might try pop when I develop a unique style of my own.

Otherwise it'd just be copying other artists and that won't work.

And nyahaha it's a self-taught skill.

In terms of experience...

The last video I watched was of Ana Tzarev, a Croatian artist.

And O EM GEE.

I felt so sad after watching her paint this huge canvas, impasto, mostly with just her little pinky.

And likely finished under one or two hours only.

BUT the product was so AWESOME.

Yea, I'm steadily losing some self-esteem again.

Difference is, I am at a suitable age to be her granddaughter.

:D

I wonder who I can go to to evaluate my piece.

To at least check out its value, maybe?

The word "value" in its many interpretations.

I want to try that on maybe, eBay.

But.

There are flaws.

Flaws that can be seen when you're up close to the canvas itself.

I'd be embarrassed to really want to sell it.

Anyways, it's a joke.

I'm working on a new piece now.

:)