Plan.... retreat?

Ahhh.... I don't even care anymore.

And I don't feel sad either.

If I do fail again, I am considering to heal myself emotionally or fulfill this emptiness in me somehow until another chance to re-take the paper a year later.

I seriously don't mind.

Giving In...?

Even though there is only 9 hours left till the DIT paper...

Even though I know I am definitely not ready for it...

Even though the above should be stressing me out immensely...

Even though I should then try to concentrate and read through everything quickly...

I. just. can't. do. it.

So Fucked.

I am so fucked.

It's the last paper and I couldn't even gather energy to study what there is still remained to study.

It's like I have no fear of failing again, at all.

Are you crazy?

I am not even fucking bugged by the "responsibilities" I have on me anymore.

Are you crazy?

I constantly have these really delusional(?) thoughts. If only it gets real, then it's an entirely different story.

Are you crazy?