Ello May~! <3

31st of May.
And I got my share of Mint Chocolate Chip at Baskin Robbin's.
So yay!

Wasted so much time today.
3 more S2 past year papers to go.
Hope I can finish it by midnight.

Procrastinatorrrrr...

Filling Up Some Things.

It is never nice to feel a void in oneself.

Not depressed at all.
Not jolly either.

Just empty.

What to feel?
What to think?
What to care?

Nothing.

ro sa ri o;

Yesterday.

Jason and I discovered that we share the same chinese surname.
And both of us were excited for a while, thinking we could be relatives or something.
But guess not, laugh out loud.
He is from the Cantonese branch while I am from the Hakka branch.


Today.

Finally done with the personal statement.
Not really 100% satisfactory but good enough I hope.
Thanks to everyone who helped me. =]

I really should pick up some speed and study faster.
Not much time left.
Ahhh...

Exhausted.

C ontinuin' with the Smashing Party!

Someone please remind me how tiring it is to write a personal statement again.

XOXOX

Tatsuki,

I finally finished American Gods last night.
The one you gave me for my birthday last year, thank you! xD
His style is a refreshing read for me.

The first half of the book was, to me, really boring.
I couldn't really figure out where the story was heading, nothing like what I was "hoping" to expect.
Laugh out loud.
But the last few chapters really pulled everything together, smartly too.
And it totally changed my perception on the entire of the novel in an instance.
So it has my praise.
It was a good piece.


I'm not really doing a review or anything, obviously.
HAHAHA.
I'm a major slow reader.
Sure did took my own sweet time on it.
Now I'm on to The Alchemist.
There are still 8 books on my bookshelf to go.

whaM!

Seoul G a r d e n

Still got my damn ass over to One Utama in the end.
Good for me.
Good for the exercise.
Good for opening my brain.
Good for refreshing my mind.

The buffet lunch was fun.
I laughed so hard, so damn hard my stomach hurt so much.
Evan, Nick and Jack, please don't make me laugh so much again when I'm trying to chew up my food.
The pain from laughing like that, was very very horrible.
Could have dead-ed from that.

And thank you Nick soo sooo soooo much for the ride home! xD
Love your drum set!

Let's do it again. =]

If.

If I end up becoming a physician.

I will create a viral strain to kill off the entire Earth's population.

A G A I N ; YUI.

夢の続き　追いかけていたはずなのに

曲がりくねった　細い道 人に躓く

あの頃にみたいにって　戻りたいわけじゃないの　なくしてきた空を
探してる
分かってくれます様に　犠牲になった様な　悲しい顔は
やめてよ

罪の最後は涙じゃないよ　ずっと苦しく背負ってくんだ
出口見えない感情迷路に
誰を待ってるの
白いノートに綴った様に　もっと素直に吐き出したいよ
何から逃れたいんだ
現実ってやつか

叶える為に生きてるんだって
忘れちゃいそうな 夜の真ん中
無難になんてやってられないから
帰る場所もないの
この想いを消してしまうには
まだ人生長いでしょ　懐かしくなる
こんな痛みも歓迎じゃん

謝らなくちゃいけないよね　ああ ごめんね
うまく言えなくて　心配かけたままだったね

あの日抱えた全部　明日抱える全部
順番つけたりはしないから
分かってくれます様に　そっと目を閉じたんだ
見たくないものまで見えんだもん

いらない噂にちょっと　初めて聞く発言どっち
向かい合ったら友達だって
嘘はやめてね
深いハートが苛立つ様に　体ん中燃えているんだ
本当は期待してんの
現実ってやつか

叶える為に生きてるんだって
叫びたくなるよ 聞こえていますか
無難になんてやってられないから
帰る場所もないの
優しさにはいつも感謝してる
だから強くなりたい　進む為に
敵も味方も歓迎じゃん


どうやって次のドア開けるんだっけ　考えてる
もう引き返せない物語始まってるんだ
目を覚ませ　目を覚ませ

この想いを消してしまうには
まだ人生長いでしょ
やり残してることやり直してみたいから
もう一度行こうか

叶える為に生きてるんだって
叫びたくなるよ 聞こえていますか
無難になんてやってられないから
帰る場所もないの
優しさにはいつも感謝してる
だから強くなりたい　懐かしくなる
こんな痛みも歓迎じゃん

Wheel of S u c h +

Relocated.

I don't think I want to care about anything anymore.

I'm just gonna let her decide everything for me.
So much to stop her from thinking I'm such a rebellious child and to ease her own stress.
I don't really matter.
I'm just like any other piece of junk.
Sickly and disgusting.
I'm a corrupted person.
With a great potential of being a psychopath.

Wherever I'm thrown to, doesn't matter.
I've lost all passion and ambition.
There really is not a goal there anymore.
It disappeared.
My will too strong, that once fallen, is so hard, so damn hard to revive it again.

Of course I can do anything.
Being subjected such and thus, nothing is fucking impossible.
All I have to do is, do it.

What still remains, is this vengeful part of me.


Unless.
Unless...
someone,
can erase all my past memories
and restructure my whole being.

I'm way too far down that perfect route I've designated
- with everybody's sake in mind -
to turn back to point zero.

doubt n trust ~

I love that song.
By Access.

Awesome tune and accompaniment.

Went to CareerSense today.
Good thinking, that old good for something me.
I asked for possible internship opportunities for as long as one month in my related field.
Hope to hear some good news soon.

And oh Nick...
Is it really inevitable to drop out from the class trip??

,,>_______<,,

flushed!

A lot of good things happened today.
But good things come weirdly.

I don't know where to begin so I guess I won't start at all.
Save the hassle of ending it.


So.
The End.

A TM ;

So many numbers to remember.

Account numbers, passwords, pins, security questions, serial numbers ...

Seriously wtf.



Very nice Indian story yesterday.
Funniest story I've ever heard about JPJ.

R E fresh ing ;

Give it a new flavour.
I'm thinking wasabi cake.
Since a few months ago.
Happy Birthday Eddie!

###

Sometimes, too much portrayal of "uniqueness" really bugs me.
Like wtf, everyone is trying to be cool in their own way.
It's too overwhelming now.
It's annoying.

I dunno why I said that.
But surely there's that stimulus.

So I could probably counter that by having changes all the time.
But even that is darn right annoying as hell.
A confusing shit.
No matter how much I would love the distress on others.
Not knowing what to say.

###

And why I am making a little fuss over it now?
Ain't stress, oh not that.
Was just thinking.

It's amazing, I still think.
You know.

T em pe ra t e ;

Why is the weather so damn hot.

%%%


"Hey," said Shadow. "Huginn or Muninn, or whoever you are."

The bird turned, head tipped, suspiciously, on one side, and it stared at him with bright eyes.

"Say 'Nevermore'," said Shadow.

"Fuck you," said the Raven.


%%%

P u n y ;

Fuck you.
Yes that's it.
That's all I want to say.

Watched that dude of a Russell Peters with my bro just now, and got all "fuck-ified" in an instance.
Gawd.

Okay, breakdown.

I bought all the stuffs before both of them even set a determined sight on anything yet.
A RM90 piece and RM28 clincher.
Good enough?
I hope.

.
.
.

Come back, my mom bising like giler.
No, she doesn't know about the clincher yet.
She doesn't need to, really.
So fine, probably returning that dress.

"SAI LUI AA..."
"ZAN HAI SAI LUI A LEI..."

Yea, cantonese shit if you get the drift.

So when your mom does that, what do you do?


> S huu t Up <


I will probably never buy anything for myself by myself again in the future.
There's that trauma.
Call me a coward you shiet.

>>>

Madoka will do the job for me.

And no, not Old Car, donkey Worm Ming.

<<<

Fuck.

D i a bo lica l PH ;

So many "fucking" issues today.
Seriously.


Skipped Stats class again.
Ah hah!
Tomorrow is the official last day even though we still have to go back for extra classes next week.
No longer care though.
Flunked my mocks big time.
N0t even a bit of guilt about it and I'm going dating with my girls tomorrow at Telawi.

Money Money Money...


Haven't study Physics for good.
Damn shit.

O w n a g E ;

Rajiv totally pawned all of us.
Highest score for Biology Unit 5.
Way to go. xD

Claire bought 3 tables for the A-Levels Annual Ball.
Darn cool.
How many thousands is that?

My mocks are total failures.
Screw it.
I'm just thankful enough that my Dyshidrosis Eczema is receding.
For now.

I skipped Stats class today, what a good girl I am.
Save for the embarrassment of that shit of paper I did.
Was planning to study Chemistry right from Unit 2.
But I ended up watching Eddie and Wei Ming played Dota instead.
Scott and Edwyn joined in later on too.
I removed myself from the computer lab to take a nap, honestly.
Just 3 minutes into it, I started talking to Matthew and E Wah.
At around 4pm, everybody started to leave the KPD E Library one by one.

You'll see my turn to pawn.
You will.

HAHAHA.

Chill i n g ;

New link addition!!
Twaciemoooo.
HAHA.

Nice to be able to stalk you now, Yee Lin.
ROFLROFL.

&&&

Jack, you've mine and Claire's praise for being a gentleman.
Thanks for the adapter and thanks for the new deal too.
Still have to talk to my bro first though.
xD

&&&

As I said I would, I screwed it with C4 and Biology Unit 6.
HAHA. Like, I don't even care anymore.
I left 2 questions totally BLANK for C4, weren't even guilty about it.
More like wanting to sleep immediately.

So, Wei Ming wanted to "report" me for reading Claire's answers.
I just banged my pen on the table, and thanks to Nick for helping me out.
>___>

So much for, "Ms.Ng, you see, I haven't studied. I was not feeling well. I thought I got swine flu..."
Ass funny.
Anyhow, she finally did settled to postpone our mocks.
Thanks lawrdd.
We really cannot take it anymore.

&&&

As for prom, we might make it into 3 tables??

Second C o m i n g ;

Ouch./
Is all I have to say.
Try having Dyshidrosis Eczema yourself.
Sure enough, it's limiting my hands' usage.
It totally sucks.

And it's chronic.
Recurrence is NOT uncommon.
It sucks shit.

I took dozens of photos of the red dots all over my body, as well as the infected eczema wound on my right sole.
He gave me antibiotic cream this time for that infected wound.
"Come back after 2 weeks, then we shall see if you need a minor surgery on it."
So damn funny.

&&&

I think the one big reason that trigger such outbreak is because of stress.
So what do I do now to de-stress??
I threw away all my notes and decided not to study SO HARD for my mocks.
You shall see me flunking all my tests.
Well, I don't even care anymore.
Haven't start a shit on Physics and C4.

If I didn't study, how did I spend my free time then?
Big dose of onemanga.com. Of course.
Drawing. Yes, I drew for my series of "weapon-ed femme".
The new addition is not completed yet, though.
I'm putting in lots of details for this one.
The weapon chosen is glass fibre (maybe?) and subject of destruction is, a life-size human doll.
Comes with fashion designing of course.
I've got a good one for footwear. Haven't seen anything like that on market.
Practicality is out of the question, it's all just for its aesthetics.

I'm quite sure I did something else, just can't remember what.

Pictures only. x]

Hapi-Men ; Hapi-Puppy

2300 years old.
And University of Pennsylvania got the junkies.
How lucky for their Museum of Archaeology and Anthropology.

Hapi-Men and Hapi-Puppy coming through, get outta my way!
... whatever my crap is.

So, I ended up checking up on the Wedjat Eye, Scarab Beetle, ... and Eye of Providence.

The Wedjat Eye
An ancient Egyptian symbol of protection and royal power from deities, in this case from Horus or Ra. The symbol is seen on images of Horus' mother, Hathor, and on other deities associated with her.

The Scarab Beetle
It seemed to the ancient Egyptians that the young scarab beetles emerged spontaneously from the burrow were they were born. Therefore they were worshipped as "Khepera", which means "he was came forth." This creative aspect of the scarab was associated with the creator god Atum.

The ray-like antenna on the beetle's head and its practice of dung-rolling caused the beetle to also carry solar symbolism. The scarab-beetle god Khepera was believed to push the setting sun along the sky in the same manner as the bettle with his ball of dung. In many artifacts, the scarab is depicted pushing the sun along its course in the sky.

[ I was planning to make fun of the second paragraph, but I'm a coward. I don't want to be cursed for making fun of their sacred beetle. ... ]

A bronze statue of Isis nursing Horus dating from the Ptolemaic dynasty of Egypt. &
A famous medieval icon of Mary and Jesus.
So cute!

I can now identify four hieroglyphs, how so happy an occasion.

Crux Ansata actually The Ankh
Eternal life. 'nuff said.

Sistrum
A musical instrument of the percussion family, chiefly associated with ancient Egypt. It consists of a handle and a U-shaped metal frame, made of brass or bronze and between 10 and 30 cm in width. When shaken the small rings or loops of thin metal on its movable crossbars produce a sound that can range from a soft tinkling to a loud jangling. The name derives from the Greek verb σείω, seio, to shake, and σείστρον, seistron, is that which is being shaken.

Show you the picture!
LAST BIT.


Eye of Providence

HAHAHAHA.
This is an early Masonic version of the Eye of Providence with clouds and a semi-circular glory.


HAHAHA.
Dan Brown's new book, The Lost Symbol coming soon!
Go buy it!
This is so exciting!

Of the drama between Dan Brown, leading critics and, the Vatican.

=]