A G A I N ; YUI.

夢の続き　追いかけていたはずなのに

曲がりくねった　細い道 人に躓く

あの頃にみたいにって　戻りたいわけじゃないの　なくしてきた空を
探してる
分かってくれます様に　犠牲になった様な　悲しい顔は
やめてよ

罪の最後は涙じゃないよ　ずっと苦しく背負ってくんだ
出口見えない感情迷路に
誰を待ってるの
白いノートに綴った様に　もっと素直に吐き出したいよ
何から逃れたいんだ
現実ってやつか

叶える為に生きてるんだって
忘れちゃいそうな 夜の真ん中
無難になんてやってられないから
帰る場所もないの
この想いを消してしまうには
まだ人生長いでしょ　懐かしくなる
こんな痛みも歓迎じゃん

謝らなくちゃいけないよね　ああ ごめんね
うまく言えなくて　心配かけたままだったね

あの日抱えた全部　明日抱える全部
順番つけたりはしないから
分かってくれます様に　そっと目を閉じたんだ
見たくないものまで見えんだもん

いらない噂にちょっと　初めて聞く発言どっち
向かい合ったら友達だって
嘘はやめてね
深いハートが苛立つ様に　体ん中燃えているんだ
本当は期待してんの
現実ってやつか

叶える為に生きてるんだって
叫びたくなるよ 聞こえていますか
無難になんてやってられないから
帰る場所もないの
優しさにはいつも感謝してる
だから強くなりたい　進む為に
敵も味方も歓迎じゃん


どうやって次のドア開けるんだっけ　考えてる
もう引き返せない物語始まってるんだ
目を覚ませ　目を覚ませ

この想いを消してしまうには
まだ人生長いでしょ
やり残してることやり直してみたいから
もう一度行こうか

叶える為に生きてるんだって
叫びたくなるよ 聞こえていますか
無難になんてやってられないから
帰る場所もないの
優しさにはいつも感謝してる
だから強くなりたい　懐かしくなる
こんな痛みも歓迎じゃん

Wheel of S u c h +

Relocated.

I don't think I want to care about anything anymore.

I'm just gonna let her decide everything for me.
So much to stop her from thinking I'm such a rebellious child and to ease her own stress.
I don't really matter.
I'm just like any other piece of junk.
Sickly and disgusting.
I'm a corrupted person.
With a great potential of being a psychopath.

Wherever I'm thrown to, doesn't matter.
I've lost all passion and ambition.
There really is not a goal there anymore.
It disappeared.
My will too strong, that once fallen, is so hard, so damn hard to revive it again.

Of course I can do anything.
Being subjected such and thus, nothing is fucking impossible.
All I have to do is, do it.

What still remains, is this vengeful part of me.


Unless.
Unless...
someone,
can erase all my past memories
and restructure my whole being.

I'm way too far down that perfect route I've designated
- with everybody's sake in mind -
to turn back to point zero.

doubt n trust ~

I love that song.
By Access.

Awesome tune and accompaniment.

Went to CareerSense today.
Good thinking, that old good for something me.
I asked for possible internship opportunities for as long as one month in my related field.
Hope to hear some good news soon.

And oh Nick...
Is it really inevitable to drop out from the class trip??

,,>_______<,,

flushed!

A lot of good things happened today.
But good things come weirdly.

I don't know where to begin so I guess I won't start at all.
Save the hassle of ending it.


So.
The End.

A TM ;

So many numbers to remember.

Account numbers, passwords, pins, security questions, serial numbers ...

Seriously wtf.



Very nice Indian story yesterday.
Funniest story I've ever heard about JPJ.

R E fresh ing ;

Give it a new flavour.
I'm thinking wasabi cake.
Since a few months ago.
Happy Birthday Eddie!

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Sometimes, too much portrayal of "uniqueness" really bugs me.
Like wtf, everyone is trying to be cool in their own way.
It's too overwhelming now.
It's annoying.

I dunno why I said that.
But surely there's that stimulus.

So I could probably counter that by having changes all the time.
But even that is darn right annoying as hell.
A confusing shit.
No matter how much I would love the distress on others.
Not knowing what to say.

###

And why I am making a little fuss over it now?
Ain't stress, oh not that.
Was just thinking.

It's amazing, I still think.
You know.

T em pe ra t e ;

Why is the weather so damn hot.

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"Hey," said Shadow. "Huginn or Muninn, or whoever you are."

The bird turned, head tipped, suspiciously, on one side, and it stared at him with bright eyes.

"Say 'Nevermore'," said Shadow.

"Fuck you," said the Raven.


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